My hope for all of us who are struggling with this issue….

The main reason I am starting this blog is to get my words out and to share with each of you what it feels like to have a husband who has been unfaithful multiple times.   This began for me about 8 years ago.  Out of the clear blue I received a email from my husbands co-worker.  She included in her email all the details PLUS copies of all my husbands correspondence back and forth to the woman. I even received a picture of him and her!    Everything about her email was nasty and angry.  I was floored and shocked. We have two small children (plus four older kids).  I was due to pick them up from school and how was I going to do this while I was in shock and felt like I was going to throw up?  I remember wanting the whole story and thinking at the time that this woman (the co-worker) really was doing me a favor and this was about helping me.  After getting this email I immediately called him and made sure he came to the phone stating it was an emergency.  I said every nasty word in the book and told him I hated him.  My world was shattered.  I found out that he cheated with this woman, I will call her Maggie, AND he had had another inappropriate meeting with a woman while he and the staff were at a seminar out of town.  The out of town affair happened while I was pregnant with our last child and my husband was working in a previous office.  She made it clear that he was always sexually inappropriate and talked about me negatively. as well as my two children from another marriage. That one time my father was in the office while this woman was visiting.

Hello world!

I am ready and willing to share my journey with all of you.  It has already been more complicated than most of you can imagine.  I have a need to write and journal all of this and hear all of your comments, personal struggles or advice.  God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.